December 1st, 2006 04:59 pm (UTC)
First off. YAY!!! Not only is it manlove, but its a freaking huge ass, wonderfully written, absolutely gorgeous, marathon manlove post (with gratuitous Ackles-in-Scrubs picspam *swoon*). :)
In case you haven't heard this enough, you rock SO hard for this. For the whole manlove project. When fandom gets me down and I catch myself thinking "maybe I should just take a break from the show" I read your posts and it reminds me just how much I freaking LOVE these boys. *squishes* Thank you.
And now, more gushing.
He touches the gaping wound on his brother's car in the same manner with which he has, at times, touched or come close to touching his brother. A quiet, unobtrusive sort of touch, mindful of the Impala's pain.
I can't believe I didn't catch this when I watched the eppy. It's so perfect! Everytime you point out these little characterizations and unconcious movements I wonder how much of it is actually scripted and how much comes from JA and JP having such a great atunement to the characters they portray. Because it is SO consistent from eppy to eppy. It leaves me awed everytime I see the small details that sneak in there. (walking in step, arm over the backseat, the herding, etc..)
The expression on his face is like coming home. It's the face of a soldier, in the early morning light, having kept vigil and searched tirelessly all through the night, seeing his comrade emerge at last through the smoke off the field of battle. Bruised, perhaps, and stumbling, but alive. There's no thought at that moment. Personal injuries are as nothing. There is only joy, pure and simple, unlike anything we've ever seen him feel before.
Holy crap this made me hurt. Your words are simply gorgeous, and the comparison is just perfect. It makes me ache to think that we've never seen this from Dean, and that Sam can't see it in that moment, to know that he is the source of his brother's joy and to understand the depth of emotion that connects the two of them. (I'm sure he's aware of it on some level, but the joy in Dean's expression should be shared and I wish I could snap a picture of it and show it to Sam.)
Geez, re-reading that I know why I let you do the meta. :) I have such a hard time expressing my thoughts and you seem to do it so effortlessly. So when I'm babbling incoherently I can just point to one of your posts and say "Here. Right here is exactly what I'm trying to say."
*basks in the manlove and the beautiful meta*