December 1st, 2006 11:08 pm (UTC)
Lame I know, but I'm in awe, you always manage to outdo yourself, and I didn't think it was possible after your Devil's Trap's catalogue. You completely rock my world. All of it is sheer beauty, but two part especially stood out for me:
He couldn't promise it before, because this vow means "forever," and he couldn't bear forever. Now, want and need are both too dense to separate, and what comes of that mix is the ability to make this vow
Sam is all in this, his journey toward his brother; the re-discovery of Dean and perhaps a new awareness of Sam himself. I love it to bits because it shows that Sam, even being lacerated by his wants, can't deny his needs anymore, and he needs Dean on such a primal level, and it just blows my mind the way everything that happened in first season seems to have taken him straight "here".
Nine time out of ten, he'll readily share what is going on, or what happened in the past. He just won't share how that makes him feel.
It's such a perfect insight into Dean, because he does come out as more sharing than Sam, but just on this superficial level where things are objectified, distant from what he feels deep down, from how they hurt him.
But I like to think that Sam knows, that he's realized and "understood" Dean during the last year, recognized his loyalty for what it is.
This is brilliant!